Two years today I lost my mum

Soft, short, fluffy baby hair,
Soft, tiny hands, holding on,
Shy smile, resting on lips,
bright blue eyes underneath sleeping lids,
A beautiful, indescribable scent.  

Two years ago today, mum, this is how I saw you when I said goodbye.

And now in 12 weeks more there will be those same features, but different. We'll be saying hello to a new life. One who will know just how special you were, one who will come to love you, even in death, as we love you still. 

I will tell them the stories, tell them the jokes, share the cuddles and kisses that you gave us, enough to last all of us a lifetime. Thank you for helping me become the mum that I will.

Mama thank you for who I am, 
Thank you for all the things I'm not, 
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times
I forgot

Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,You sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed
along the way

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you,Yeah I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong
Dry your eyes

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed
Along the way
'Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama